A kid smoked his first joint when he was just 16 years of age, this was while with his friends he knew are into this yet he went with those kids to a place where he did that.
Why this happened?
This happened because of a vacuum within this kid which was a social and economical vacuum, to be true a vacuum of love and protection by the most important people in life.
Protection from unwanted enemies which were in the face of 9 members of a step family.
The kid saw an urge of establishing relations which were influencing enough as to protect him from the his step family as his father and mother were helpless to protect him from the humiliation and violence that happened as he grew to the age.
This all escalated as he took more drugs, started drinking and spending time with the people from the wrong side of town, he made influential friends and became rigid in his thoughts and beliefs where he had no more or little space for empathy towards humans or nature.
Everyday of life was a day ready to die or kill, ready for a new adventure, ready and thirsty for something new.
An unwanted extreme nature evolved within which erupted as hatred in his life.
Yet the enemies were still there influencing his life and yet he himself was destroying his life with drugs and alcohol along with the biggest poison he was feeding him, HATRED!
7th Sept 2008, after 3 years of this life....
He met someone who after a long time of 5 years made him feel something for someone...
The bold is one of the best journeys of his life and will be explained further yet to understand is that all stated above was the worst part of his life which he realizes today...
The only saviors he had and found was:
1. ALLAH
2. An angel of ALLAH...
Angels are the purest form of people in your life, to be pure it doesn't mean they have to be sin free. It is just that they will influence your life in a manner that will bring out the purity hidden within you.
Everyone is good, everyone is pure...
I never knew that i had it all within me but it was there, how can i thank the angel and how can i thank my Lord...
Sometimes i wonder why he even helped me, what good am i to anyone?
I have been a disappointment to everyone who has spend time with me...
Close people have told me that they are with me only because it is their choice, not that i am worthy of...
People for whom i am ready to die at any second of my life...
How can ALLAH love such a disappointment? :-)
The thought of this gives me shivers and tears.....
Yet he loved me so much, so just consider the love he has for you...
You are of course better than this kid....
Just once in your life, try praying and asking for forgiveness for whatever you've done from your Lord...
The peace and smoothness you will experience in every single of that tear will rip your worries apart...
It will give you true meaning...
No drugs, no alcohol, no woman, no music can give you the high that a single tear shed in front of your Lord will provide you....
What do you wait for my brother?????????????????????
Reflect!
